 - How did you start your sex life? Was it an easy decision? Was there a long period of foreplay, petting, oral sex, or was it spontaneous? How did you feel having lost virginity? Can you say it became a special experience for you?
First real sex I had in Young Pioneer (scouts) camp. Again the original course was probably in the peer pressure. Besides, my being used to sexual games played its part.
By that age I was already a real past master of 'lower kiss' but 'the rule of the game' was such that it was not appropriate for a boy to suggest this kind of relationships to a girl (immature), and for a girl it was equally improper to accept this kind of proposal. Public opinion! It was ok to offer a girl 'to fall down' - but that would mean real sex. So we girls were facing a choice - to give up childish relationships and save their virginity 'for the husband', or cross the border and 'fall down' with somebody.
As a result I did not have any partners left for a 'lower kiss', and it was itching like hell down there... I had to think of 'falling down', but it was a pretty serious deed with unpredictable consequences. Loosing virginity did not bother me much, but the unwanted pregnancy... Abortions among the 12 - 16 y/o were not a rare thing in our village, and what I heard from other girls about it (some even flaunted about it) did not entice me much.
Of course, I heard of 'the proper' ways of preventing pregnancy spread among girls by word of mouth, but still there were no peace of mind... I even missed the good old times - just pleasure and no problems at all. Hence when guys suggested we 'fall down' I kept refusing. It was not that I was against it, but I wanted my guarantees...
The first one to learn about my hesitation was one guy from senior detachment. I knew him a bit, he was from the same village and, by the way, he was famous for the fact that nobody ever got into pregnancy trouble with him. So once he noticed me in the canteen, we talked about our village, about common acquaintances a bit. Then we met same night and continued chit-chatting. We got interested in each other and in a few days we were already 'seeing each other'. We talked very frankly at our 'dates' - basically discussed our common friends: who did what with who and under what circumstances...
There came a moment when he asked if I ever had done anything myself. I replied casually that only 'a lower kiss' back then, in childhood (I was playing a grownup!) Then he suggested we 'fall down'. Then in a whining voice I spilled out all my doubts and fears to him (hoping he will be able to dispel them). He took the issue seriously and informed me that I could fear not, because there is 'a method', and he can demonstrate it to me. I gladly agreed - I had been missing the action.
Not postponing it for long, we arranged and expedition into the woods same very day. I seized up a blanket from the bed, he broke out a board from the fence... We found a good spot, spread out the blanket and undressed... I had not had a 'lower kiss' for a long time, so I lay down, dot ready and relaxed, closing my eyes.
But he asked me to open my eyes and watch. I raised myself on my elbows and started looking down to the junction place. He must have known his job pretty well; adroitly and confidently he placed the head of his penis and even moaned with pleasure when he felt it tight in my flesh. I tried to press my bended legs tighter to my belly and he started his movement.
Honestly it was for the first time I saw it in such detail (before I mostly just lied on my back with my eyes closed and just feel). And I must saw I found the sight itself very exiting. I would not take my eyes off the movements of his penis and did not miss the moment when all of a sudden he withdrew his tool abruptly and hovered above me for 2 -3 seconds. Then his penis started throwing out spurts of liquid (apparently 'that very' liquid which was so dangerous when it gets inside one).
Having finished his business he caught his breath and asked: 'Understand?' A silly question. I understood and appreciated all at once. That is why after he had some rest I myself put my hand on his chest and looking him in the eye, said: 'Let's 'fall down' now!'
We moved over to the grass (not to soil the blanket) and proceeded. He spread my legs as wide as I had never allowed anyone to spread them before, but I did not mind it now - I trusted him. Then I felt him penetrating me. At first to the depth I was already familiar with, then there was a sharp thrust (apparently when my hymen was broken) and then came a feeling of being burst open and filled from inside. I did not feel much pain, just a sharp thrust. I must have been very aroused by what happened before.
Sex took quite a while this time (probably because he had already come once). I enjoyed it, but could not fully relax. I was following everything that was happening, every moment was interesting to me - it was my first time! That was why I was able to tell the moment when he was getting ready to come - his eyes froze, mouth fell half open, body was tense as a string, his breathing stopped. But he did not loose control completely - he withdrew from inside me right in time.
This time he pressed his body against mine and started rubbing against my belly throwing out his semen. That was how I lost my virginity. There was a little bit of blood, but I wisely took some cotton wool with me. A little soreness (no more then from scratch on a knee) I felt only later when we were going back to the camp.
Most important in that experience for me was not loosing my virginity in itself (although that gave me already a different status, not a 'child', but a 'young woman'), but the observations I made for myself. I could 'fall down' with any guy after that. Practically every time since I have been able to determine exactly the moment a guy was going to come, and that very second I wriggle myself from under him, so that he had to come in the air or on my body.
One drawback was that I could not really relax and had to control the situation all the time. But if before sex a guy promises me he 'won't come inside me', I trust him and fully enjoyed myself. Needless to say, that I have used my knowledge to the fullest.
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